Dr wants me to start physical theropy but I think by the time I drive to Steubenville for a 1 hour session and pay copays 2-3 times a week, I may has well join the YMCA in Wheeling. its less than $50 a month for me and my wife, I can go at my own pace, stay as long or as often as I want and there is a pool and a hot tub. No Brainer. Other than that, the flu is gone but tough chunks of thick flem remain and my unsteadiness on my feet is worse. I am using 2 canes now for better balance. they have a pretty good heavyweight cane at the home care place i go to but they are $40 ea. I would love to get 2 of those. Hopefully we get a break in all this wet and snowy weather so I can take my chair out more. I am sticking to the walker and canes for now to preserve the chair so it will last.

Forgot to mention, new expense not covered by my insurance,  I am in need of adult diapers. 50ish size. If yo have or know someone who has some to donate, let me know. If not donations are still taken on home page. ALTHOUGH i HATE TO ADMIT IT, I am for some reason crapping to bed on an almost nightly basis. very liquidy, not sure if it is because of the cancer recovery or the 3 rectal surgeries I had last year. with all the oxycotin im on and up to 6 imodium a day, i cant even slow it down. THIS IS A DESPERATE DONATION DRIVE AS IT IS INTOLLERABLE TO LIVE WITH AND REALLY HURTING ME MENTALLY. Thanks in advance. Please repost my site to twitter and facebook anytime you can, all donations no matter how big or small go a long way. Peace out to all my family and extended family, and yes that even includes my twitter family. Now spread the word and donate :-)

The flu just wont leave me right now I spend way too much time in the bathroom and feel like a dehydrated sponge. no matter what I eat (jello, pudding...) or drink (mostly water) It is ready to exit my body one way or another within 15 mins. My sleep cycle is OMG who knows what when or how long. I may sleep for 2 hours and stay up for a day and a half then I may sleep 15-20 hrs stay up for 2 or 3 and back to sleep. I even sleep through too many of my trips I should have made to the bathroom but whats new? I swear I have given up on giving a shit (pun intended) weather I get up or not. I got a feeling my time for depends is now (if they a, make them in my size and b, if I can afford them) I imagine they aren't cheap. But alas, I think my time has come. I really do hate the way its working now. In desperation, I stuff a doggie pee pad in my boxers "just in case" (ok I lied - it wasn't just in case - I knew it would take multiple hits before I wake up and notice) But as they say, any port in a storm - and storm it does. I am pretty sure it is hitting me so hard due to my damaged immune system along with the multiple surgeries on my rear end last year causing these problems. If anyone knows where I can get "larger size" adult Depends or similar, Let me know where and about how much. Meanwhile, maybe I will Google it just for shits and giggles (pun intended again). Anyhow I got 2 weeks till I get paid again and should have a source by then and hopefully be over this never ending flu.

I am currently down with the flu for about a week now. not fun. Very tired at times and wide awake others. Meds dont seem to help so I will just have to ride it out with my weakend immune system. I think I picked it up last week going to all the different Dr offices and hospital for tests, I cancelled my appointments this week for the sake of me and others. I hope to get some results next week on some of the past tests I have had and I have to reschedule with my ENT Dr for my swallow test results and balance results. (looks like blood pressure related though). Depression is getting worse rather than better and my seemingly constant incontinance does not make me feel much better about myself. The saying is true - I'm much too young to feel this damn old. Oh well, I'm getting tired of looking at the computer for today so lets end it on a happy note. I cant bend over far enough to